Bemused Embrace of Nihilism

This blog aint about the Nickelodeon series (the last airbender)……although words cannot express how much I LOVED, LOVED, LOVED the finale! (You want to talk embarrassing…….how about trying to convince your spouse at 11PM that you were really watching Nick with your 4 year old, despite the fact that he has been in bed for 3 hours.)

No, this blog is about my quest for a new avatar for this blog and others. Suffice it to say, my other image was decidedly dated and undoubtedly lame – a boring picture from the early oughts…..wedding pic no less, wearing a corporate noose. Look, its a decent image for a corporate headshot, but is clearly not a good representation of me, or at least this version of me – mad Troy, beyond firewall!

So no big deal right? I should be able to peruse some image files and quickly come up with a pixel formation that better captures the inner essence of Troy.

Not quite.

You see, I have somehow deluded myself into believing that I am much more attractive than my pictures would indicate. However the collective house of horrors that is my photo album emphatically screams back at me “Au Contraire” (yes, apparently my digital library speaks French)! Thou art tremendously unappealing.

But hey, this is the Web right? Who cares about accuracy (the current CNN slogan). I can pretend to be whatever I want to be (fake it till you……ok, just fake it)!

So, after extensive research I have decided to go with……..drum roll……..wait for it…….my drunken, drug addicted, pre-hippee icon cut down in his prime. I’m talkin Jim Morrison baby! (as he spins in his grave…..which is in Paris…..got a real Francophile theme going today!)

Now for a quick analysis from my inner therapist. What does this auspicious selection of a image say about me?

1) That I need to diet and exercise so I don’t have to select fake images to represent me (how did my Mom’s perspective get into my head…….scary)?

2) That part of me died in my twenties as well (don’t worry, the world is better off without that alcoholic anyway – hey I was a fun drunk…..at least the parts that I remember, I was fun).

3) That it is rather pathetic that all of my references are somewhere between 30 to 40 years old (I like a few on the new music scene i.e. My Chemical Romance……but c’mon…..am I really supposed to dig someone like Rihanna or, ugh, the Jonas Brothers?).

4) That maybe, I really AM Jim Morrison, or at least thats the REAL me (pretty deep eh……or pretty sad – depends on your perspective).

Feel free to chime in with your answers – as long as they don’t include any realistic images.

Let it roll, baby roll!